Totally honest- this has been a shitty week for me. I am overwhelmed, exhausted and run down. I, like most of you am attempting to figure out how manage weight loss (or just being healthy) in times of stress and chaos. It's not going well.
This week alone I ate enough crap for 2 months of cheat days. We started the week off with chocolate chip cookies (a dozen consumed by just me). Then I took my kids to see a movie, which simply cannot be done without movie theater popcorn, my weakness. I rounded that off with more girl scout cookies (I ate half a box last week), and like 20 Dove mini's. I feel like there was a donut or two in there but that may have been last week. It's so hard to keep track.
To offset all that junk I went to the gym, but I am failing at that too. I am so over the gym, so over the cold, so over the bla routine of the treadmill, the elliptical and the bike. I am struggling to get to the gym most every day. Today for instance I spent 4 hours on my ass doing school work, and I have zero motivation to go to the gym. I was so hoping it would be warm enough to run outside, but it's a bit too chilly for this wimp.
I realized this week I am not doing emotional eating so much as being too emotional to give a shit what I am eating. I am not smothering feelings in nacho cheese so much as saying screw this shit. Weight loss takes dedication, motivation, thought, planning, patience and determination of which I have almost zero right now. I've all but lost my give a darn. This is truth people. Raw honest truth. Sometimes you just don't care anymore. Sometimes you are too tired to make an effort. For those of you who have seen 5 year engagement we have reached the stale donuts in a bunny suit phase. For real. I wonder where I can pick up a giant pink bunny suit....
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